Freedom

I think I'm getting better at keeping up with my blog. I've been finding myself sleeping a lot lately, all I want to do is sleep. I have been trying to get over the feeling, but all I can think about is going back to bed after I drop my kids off at school. I really need to hunker down and figure out what my problem is, I seem to have lost a lot of my drive that I had when I was going to school.

On another note, Valentines day weekend was nice. I cooked James dinner and confined the girls upstairs, and made a one time allowance for them to eat popcorn while they watched a movie...(no food allowed at all upstairs), so they were pretty excited about that. I bought the girls a rose and a necklace and they were delighted and gushed with girlish glee....I love that I can do more grown up things now and they can appreciate them.

I am simplifying my life this year, this wasn't a new years resolution..it actually started in March of last year. I have realized that putting so much effort into one day events, stresses me out and I can't fully enjoy in all the fun, because frankly it's quite exhausting. So, I am making an effort to focus most of my energy on everyday things, cleaning, laughing and playing with my girls, and finding the simple joys in life.

I am so happy, that I am able to really think about my future and decide what I want to do for the rest of my life. I haven't had that luxury for the past 8 or so years. James has taken it upon himself to be the soul provider, until I am completely satisfied with my plans. He has grown to be such a wonderful guy...I mean I have always loved him, but now I'm starting to love him for different reasons. He enjoys his job, but with most jobs...you get bored and need a vacation...luckily we will be getting one in the next month or so, our destination? PORTLAND, oh geez, I'm so excited! We haven't been able to have a family vacation in over 4 years, due to finances. But I made a promise to myself and my family and I don't break promises. I have been given a lot of great fortune in my life, not in the way of money, but with family, friends and finally getting freedom that I never had before. I want to enjoy life, to the fullest...and that's what I intend to do.